how I'm feeling

I have some time on my hands (my fav tv show doesn't come on for another 15 minutes, and Jason is watching the Bomber game) so I thought that I would come back today with one more post.

I have been feeling a bit strange lately. Emotionally...or maybe just mentally. I don't really know the word for it. I am frustrated by my limitations, and I don't feel productive in my life. I am getting very antsy for something to happen.

I have started the ball rolling to return to work - AGAIN. Last week I met with my rehab consultant, and he then met with my employer. Our plan is to return me to my job as I left it, with a few minor changes. As well, I would slowly build up my clients. I am nervous and scared about this. The initiation to return to work is once again my own.

I wouldn't say that I am bored at home, because there are alot of things that I would love to be doing, but I either don't have the energy to, or can't do certain tasks for long periods of time without getting dizzy. I have hobbies that I love to do, like creating beaded jewlery, and I can't always do that because the mere act of concentrating can send me for a ride on the tea cups!

A balance seems to be missing...I'm just a body, floating around my house. Maybe that means that my spirit is missing...

It's time for me to help find the person who disappeared without a trace...hey, maybe they could find my spirit!

Emily