Ignorance is bliss.
Knowledge is power.
When I was first diagnosed with ADEM (eight months prior to the diagnosis of MS) I always felt as if there was something that my neurologist wasn't telling me. I can remember using the expression, "He seems to be waiting for the other shoe to drop".
Today, I believe that the manner in which the original neurologist introduced me to my "attack" has proved to be a blessing. I never received more information than I could handle, and I didn't receive any answers to questions that I didn't ask.
I have been trying to figure out how it is that I have handled the past two and half years as well as I have. Yesterday, I realized that for me, ignorance is bliss, and knowledge is power.
I have filled my life with MS related information. I neither hide from, nor hide, my disease. I believe in the importance of learning and sharing any information that I get my hands on. I encourage my family and friends to do the same.
I don't know everything about my own situation, I still believe that. If you ask me how many lesions I have/had, I can only tell you "countless". I can't tell you where I would fall on a disability scale (no pun intended!). I once wondered if I have "black holes" in my brain, but pursued it no further.
So with knowledge of the big picture, and little about the fine details, I find myself more at ease with my own situation.
Does that make knowledge bliss?