needle day

It's needle day.

Chin up. Smile on. Sit up straight. Put on a happy song!

My last needle was on Friday, and it caused some friction between Jason and I. Hopefully, with two "needleless" days behind us, tonight will go smooth.

I'm just not into it.

I jump when the "big click" happens with the auto injector. We hardly ever use the needle "manually", as finding the right "speed" for the injection is a challenge. If you go too slow, or too fast, it burns. There was a time when I could give myself the injections, in either fashion, and now...I can't bring myself to do it.

The friction between Jason-the-needle-man and I is that he gets brought down by my "down". So then I get upset with him for not being the support that I need at this time. I want him to encourage the needle, and bring me back to where WE were at the beginning of this. I want him to make me laugh as he prepares the needle...this really isn't a stretch for him. He is a man with many voices and inner-characters! Instead, Jason is suggesting that maybe I should stop the Rebif for a bit. I don't like the devil's advocate routine on Monday's, Wednesday's, and Friday's.

We will both have some time to think about things, as I am off to Ontario on search of Rebif-pushers. Or maybe in search of my own inner strength on this one. I will need to administer 4 needles without Jason...

I have to go and take the needle out of the fridge (the butter keeper, to be specific)



Ladyfingers said...
October 28, 2008 at 2:59 p.m.

Perhaps Jason wants to prepare you for your trip when he won't be around. He wouldn't really want you to stop the Rebif. I have always let Jason do your injections because he is so good at it and because he can make you laugh in spite of the discomfort. He really has a gift of knowing how to distract you. Remember, it is painful for him too when he knows it has been a difficult injection. When you return from your trip he will be anxious to "needle you" some more.


Anonymous said...
October 28, 2008 at 7:43 p.m.

I'd be happy to stick you up anytime - bring it on.

Can't wait 'til you get here!



~ Charlene S Noto said...
October 29, 2008 at 4:56 p.m.

I used to have M do my injections but he would wince as much as I would. I finally found it easier to do them myself. I don't like it and often procrastinate until late at night on shot day. Then three mornings after are wasted feeling like a sledgehammer hit me...but...don't stop the Rebif. If this is any encouragement, in spite of the fact that I thought the Rebif was doing nothing for me, I've been "new" lesion free for over a year since being on it. I hate all three of my shot times a week but I'd hate the new lesions more. I also gave up the injector but you're right...the wrong speed and it burns. I count slowly to 20 (half the speed of the Rebif injector) and that seems to work "most" of the time. *hugs* and enjoy your trip! Was just up there in October and visited the ROM (pics in my Flicker account)

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