Earlier today, I had an idea for a post - and now it's gone.
Let me see if I can find it by typing some various thoughts...
I'm going to put myself on a schedule. Instead of getting up when I decide to get up, I am going to get up every morning at the same time...regardless of how I feel. I will get up, have my breakfast, have a shower, and by then, Jason will be home from his morning shift at work, and we will go for a walk. If I am not up to it following my shower, that's ok. If I need to go back to bed after my shower that's ok too. That is the schedule I'm going to start with...I have to start somewhere.
I finally settled on this decision because I am still grasping for what my "purpose" is. My newest diagnosis has created some bumps in my life...the "new reality" that I was just starting to get used to. Instead, it feels as if my life just got more complicated.
I mentioned before that I have been struggling with not being able to work, and not being a mother either...what am I if I am neither? I'm anxious to figure that out! I know...I know...it will just happen...but I do believe that we have some control.
If I have a routine, maybe I will feel more important. Not that I don't feel important...purposeful is more like it...a contributor...in control.
How is that for "various thoughts"?