bouncing all around

Yesterday, I had what I would consider a good day. The week leading up to yesterday was not such a good time as my energy level was very low. I have to learn to better control my thinking regarding this "take each day as it comes" business.

I emotionally struggle with the physical come down after a good day/week. The week that Jason was on vacation, the week that we had scheduled the happenings for everyday, was quite successful for me. Now this past week, the week following the good week, I had a big zero in the energy department. So instead of allowing that, I felt guilty about it. I questioned my exhaustion...is it just boredom?...laziness?

The next thing I know, I'm bouncing around the kitchen: unloading the dishwasher, loading the dishwasher, scrubbing the sink, cleansing the counters. I even planned and almost single handedly executed supper 6 hours later! Now today, I will take it easy. Then tomorrow (ideally) will be another good day.

Despite the emotional ups and downs over my state, the stress of the unknown with the injections on Mon/Wed/Fri, and the challenging week that Jason had at work...I have barely been wobbly! I even have my eyes riveted to a novel for about a week now!

I REALLY need to stop beating myself up for having a few down days!

Emily