Once again regarding my fatigue, I hear myself complaining to Jason, "I don't like this". His response, "You say that every time."
Yes, I do.
Because it isn't getting any easier. This is not what I want.
Would it be easier if I adjusted my attitude...personality? Maybe then I wouldn't forget everything that I just accomplished.
What is so important in my life that I can't accept the fact that I just need to lay low...zone out on the couch or lay in bed for a couple of days?
What is that I want to do RIGHT NOW?
put away Christmas gifts, put the mandarin oranges in the fridge, clean up the clutter in the family room downstairs, organize my sock drawer, put away my summer clothes, organize my closet, read my new book, edit photos, organize photos on my computer, make jewelry, play on the
...and that's just off the top of my head!
I want a consistent, level (no surges or rations), and happy energy.
But why "I don't like this", is more that just feeling too exhausted to do anything that I want to do. Experiencing full on fatigue scares me. I become more cautious when eating. I make more mistakes while communicating. The fog feels thicker. I feel useless and like I'm a disappointment.
And I feel like it won't end.