fitness my way

At the end of October, I canceled my membership to Curves. My personal relationship with Curves was not good for me. Too much pressure was placed on none other than get fit by this particular means.

I started my Curves membership in the spring of 2006 - at the same time that I "went berry picking". I had two medical leaves placed on my membership during this time, and my attendance was sporadic at best. I just never felt "on" enough to go in for the 30 minute work-out.

I worried about being able to get myself home after 30 minutes. Sometimes, Jason would drop me off, and pick me up. To take the bus, would have meant a long walk, as the location is off the main routes. And on many occasions, I could not stick around for the full 30 minutes - my arms and legs felt like bricks.

I tried to adjust my workout. Instead of jogging or bouncing on the spot (in between the strength exercises) I tried to move slower. I would focus on moving my arms or my legs, or squatting while extending a leg. I had no shortage of movements. But I have a difficult time doing things at half speed or half movement...I feel self conscious. I push to my limit every time.

This goes back to needing to just slow life down. Things don't have to be rushed. I know that to maintain a non-wobbly world, I need to be methodical, cautious, and calm. I had trouble applying this to a work-out. And it became a fight with myself.

Guilt. Disappointment. Frustration. Fatigue. No more.

I am committing myself to staying healthy on my own terms...and I am considering taking an MS Aquafit class in the coming year.



Ladyfingers said...
December 19, 2009 at 7:03 p.m.

Well Em you may have just enticed me to join the Arthritis/Fibromyalgia swim fit.


Ladyfingers said...
December 23, 2009 at 8:29 a.m.

Seems to me Em that your Fatigue workshop did a lot of good. Guilt,disappointment and frustration with oneself do not belong in the life of a person with MS.


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