My response as of late seems to be a result of being "stuck" in the moment, and not wanting to leave the other person at a loss for words. For example, for a recent group gathering, I prepared myself ahead of time...I knew what I wanted to say. But when my turn came to introduce myself to the group, I found myself "stuck". My response, after cocking my head and looking skyward, was ..."Nothing".
Um yeah. Nothing.
In the moment, it was entertaining to the group, but I didn't have a chance to backtrack or explain that it isn't as it sounds. I had wanted to say something about indulging my hobbies (indulging wasn't the exact word I had planned, and in hindsight I'm very glad I didn't say "indulging" as it sounds almost as snotty as "nothing"). But it's the truth - I don't do anything in an official capacity, and I couldn't if I tried.
How can I tell someone that I am home everyday because my days (even hours) are unpredictable and therefore prevent me from working? My MS is invisible to most people, so saying that I am on disability seems just as awkward as "nothing".
So does my answer of "nothing" make the asker uncomfortable?
If I respond, "I'm on disability" does this make the asker uncomfortable?
Does the answer, "I have MS and am unable to work" make the asker uncomfortable?
Does it really matter?
Maybe I think too much.
I am especially glad that I'm not in a position of deciding if I should disclose to my employer (current or future). I already feel bad that I had to leave my job when all of this came down.