Keep a Lid On It

I'm working hard to keep a lid on it. The jar represents my life, a clear jar, so that I can look at it from the outside without getting right in the mix. The mix in the jar is all of the crap life serves up. The contents of the jar aren't packed in layers - it's all mixed around. Because the jar is clear, I am able to look at and think about the contents, analyze it, share it...I just can't dump the stuff (because then what would I do with my life?).

The key to keeping things in the jar is to not keep the lid on too tight, or too loose. Too tight and it could explode - glass and stress (crap) everywhere...really hard to put back together. If the lid is loose, it could fall off when I least expect it, releasing either a slow leak or a large spill.

So I keep the lid on...just right.

And right now the jar is full - again.

If you've been hanging around here with me for a couple of years, you may know that my jar always seems full. MS, infertility, life threatening infections, saying goodbye to work, saying goodbye to grandparents, depression...and that's just me. Jason has had his share of challenges this year as well.

Now we have a new challenge. As of last month, we (Jason and my family, Dude, Ladyfingers, Andrea, B and R&R) are facing cancer. My dad has brain cancer. As of today, he is not quite at the halfway point of what is considered his radical radiation treatment. Lots of radiation to his whole brain, with the goal of eliminating the cancer which has invaded major facial nerves.

I have added this to my jar...
and I keep the lid on...just right.