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Greetings from "Sleepyville", or "Fatigue City".

Need I say more?

Ok, stop twisting my arm. I will say more.

I have been struggling with fatigue. That darn all-encompassing, life sucking fatigue.

I can't stand feeling this way. I am so tired, that I am afraid that if I fall asleep, I'll never wake up. I'm too tired to talk, so I just don't call (or type). My limbs feel as if they are encased in cherry chip cake (I would say cement, but that wouldn't be a good segue for my next complaint). I don't want to eat much because chewing is tiresome, and swallowing can be scary.

But, stubborn me, I push, and I push. And then I wonder why even breathing seems to take too much effort.

And here is another BUT...On a good day, I will credit my "push, push-ness" for my strength, and my ability to handle in a positive way, all of the crap I have been dealt.

Emily

2 comments:

Ladyfingers said...
January 15, 2009 at 1:12 p.m.

I can relate to that fatigue Em & it is awful for sure. Slowly sliding feet across the floor because they are too heavy to lift.Not wanting to shower or wash your hair because you can't lift your arms. Resting does nothing. It means you "have to" push harder later. Okay....You've been here before and you know that it will end. Drink some nutritious smoothies (no chewing involved). Put a limit on the "pushness" if you must do it. If your eyelids will stay open read a book or a magazine. Meditate, relax and turn off your brain. Methinks it thinks too much.

Mom XO

High On Craft said...
January 18, 2009 at 5:09 p.m.

Wow Emms! I've been tired before but never THAT tired! I will think twice before I complain again.

Hugs to you as you struggle through this. I admire your strength and think it is awesome that you have this outlet to share your story.

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